Baby Butter Is Five Years Old

I was just reading my last two posts and realized it's been September since I blogged...holy cow! It's now October 8...so much for trying to keep up with it! Here's the problem...Facebook! I was against things like Facebook and MySpace for ages b/c one of my teenage neices had gotten into some minor trouble with it so I thought they were evil places where only sexually crazed teenagers (and pedophiles) and losers hang out. But then I kept getting emails from my friends requesting I join Facebook. I denied it for a couple of months, but one day this past August I could deny no more. I got curious and quite frankly tired of the requests bombarding me. So I decided to join Facebook to see what all the fuss was about. It took me a couple of days to navigate myself around it and figure out how exactly it works. I kept posting status messages, one after the other, of random thoughts I was having, not realizing that they were sent to all of my "friends" pages...they sure did get bombarded by those thoughts that first week...LOL! But now I've figured out how it works and have grown to love Facebook. I've found some old friends I haven't talked to in a couple of years and some have found me...it's really great. But, it's too addicting which is why I don't blog often. I'm on Facebook tooling around reading other people's pages, looking at their pictures, posting messages, etc. Next thing I know I've burned an hour (or more) doing all this and guess what...no time to blog now. The whole point of creating this blog was so I'd have a place I could vent and/or talk about my random thoughts.

Ok, on to a different subject altogether. Well, my son Ryan turned 5 yesterday. We were so busy entertaining him that I really never got a moment to sit down and absorb it all. It was an exciting day though. We picked him up early from school, took him for his favorite meal of fried chicken..he insists it have "bones"...not the strips or nuggets...and then off we were to Cox Farms for a fun-filled day at the pumpkin patch. There's nothing in life better than watching the joy on your children's faces when they're having a great time. And I'm so proud of him for braving the big slides that he was so afraid of when we first got there. He and Colin were so cute the whole day and thankfully I got some GREAT pictures.

But, Ryan is 5 now and it means he's graduated out of babyhood and into full on childhood. And it makes me sad b/c the day is getting closer that he will not want his mommy anymore. Where friends become more important and mommy isn't cool. We may be a few years away from all that but we're closer to it now than we were these last 5 years. I love who Ryan is now...he's so funny, witty, smart, goofy, and so much more, but I will always miss my "baby butter" the nickname I gave to him when he was just a little infant. Even though we named him Ryan, to me it didn't fit him when he was teenie, ya know? He was so fragile and sweet and soft...like a pad of butter. So that's what I called him, my baby butter, until Ryan finally felt right (a few months later). And still to this day I call him that b/c he will always be my baby butter. Incidentally, Colin's nickname was "sweet baby boy" now it's "Colin Wolin Bolin."

Each new stage of life brings something exciting and different (in good and bad ways) and watching my children grow up and experience these stages of life is the most rewarding thing in my life. And I am so grateful that I've been able to stay home with them and watch as they grow up. Even the bad moments (note previous posts) are really good moments b/c they're all stages we must complete in our journey of life. The spills, messes, boo boos, laughs, hurts...they're all part of life and are unavoidable, thus should be embraced (I should remember this next time I have to clean up pumpkin pancake mix that's all over the kitchen rug, the dog, Colin, etc.). I love my children more than anything in this entire world and being their mommy is the most important and precious gift God has ever given to me and I will always do my best to honor that gift. And I can't believe I've been a mommy for 5 years now...that "blows my head up" as Ryan would say :) It's been an incredibly fulfilling journey and the best years of my entire life.

Ok, time to snap out of it and back to reality...I hear Colin grunting in the corner...we know what that means! Poop patrol ON MY WAY!!!! Gosh I love this mommy thing!